Ibhulogi yakamuva Engingazitshela isimo sami sangaphambilini isilungele ukufundwa ku-inthanethi lapha https://www.fireflyfriends.com/uk/blog/what-id-tell-my-past-self/Ngisanda kweseka umngane wami wakudala ngokuhlola okukhathazayo kwengane yakhe esibhedlela. Ayefana nalawo esake sadlula kuwo endodakazini yami enesifo sokuwa esingandile futhi esinzima futhi engakwazi ukufunda. Ngazithola nginikeza isiqinisekiso; hhayi ukuthi konke kuzolunga ngezivivinyo (sasingakwazi lokho); kodwa wayezobhekana nakho, kungakhathaliseki ukuthi yini umphumela.Ezinsukwini zokuqala zokuxilongwa kwendodakazi yami, ngikhumbula ngicabanga ukuthi ngeke ngikwazi ukubhekana nokukhulisa ingane ekhubazekile. Kungaleso sikhathi lapho ngangicabanga ukuthi ukuphila kungase kunjani nokuthi kungenzeka sibhekene nani. Eqinisweni, iqiniso losuku nosuku cishe liye ladlulela kakhulu futhi linenselele kunalokho engangikucabanga. Mhlawumbe into emangalisa kakhulu, ukuthi silungile.Impilo imnandi, siyajabula.Kungaba nzima kunoma ubani ongekho emhlabeni we-SEN ukuthi acabange ukuthi impilo enokuquleka kwansuku zonke, ukuhlala esibhedlela, uhambo lwe-ambulensi yezimo eziphuthumayo, ukwehla kwengqondo, kanye nokuziphatha okuyinselele enkulu okufanele ukuphathe kungaba okujabulisayo. Kodwa ukuphila kwethu kumnandi. Kwesinye isikhathi ngiye ngizithole ngibheka eminye imindeni, imindeni engenazo ingane ekhubazekile, ethi ebusweni bayo ihlelwe 'ephelele' futhi ngizithole ngimangala ukuthi ibonakala icindezelekile kunathi, futhi akukho okujabulisayo.Ngiyazi manje ukuthi kungani; kufihlwe kokuthile labo abasemhlabeni okungewona we-SEN abangasoze bakutholeEmhlabeni wethu, sithola injabulo, injabulo, ukujabula ngisho, ezintweni abanye abebengeke baziqaphele.Ngizithola sengiya emsebenzini ngiphethe isiphethu esinyathelweni sami njengoba indodakazi yami ingazange ibanjwe isithuthwane ngalolo suku ekuseni; Ngibiza umyeni wami ngesasasa njengoba esanda kusayina 'ekhaya' okokuqala ngqa selokhu ehlulekile ukukhuluma; omunye wabanakekeli bethu abahle uyafika futhi sigigitheka ngokuthile. Izinto eziningi ebengizikhathaza ngazo azisacabangi lutho manje.Ngikhumbula ngifunda kusizindalwazi sabazali ezinsukwini zakuqala, ukuphawula kothile othi ukuba nengane ekhubazekile kwakubenza bajabule. Ngacabanga ukuthi kwakuyimbudane leyo, nakuba ngangizama ukududuza. Ngiyayithola manje. Ngizizwa nginenhlanhla yokuba sesimweni esifanayo.Nakhu lapho ngithi ngeke ngishintshe lutho. Kodwa bengingathanda. Ngangikhahlela isithuthwane ngiye onqenqemeni futhi ngiqinisekise ukuthi indodakazi yami ayiphinde ibe nokuquleka. Kodwa okunye kwakho, okunye ukuphila okuhlukile, amandla amangalisayo endodakazi yami, injabulo nomoya wokunganaki? Ukuthi ngeke ngilahle ithemba kalula nje. Noma umuntu engenze ngaba nguye.Okuthunyelwe Engizozitshela kona okwangaphambili kuvele kuqala ku-Firefly Blog .************ https://www.fireflyfriends.com/uk/blog/special-needs/
